We Have ONE Heartbeat!

Today was the first ultrasound!  After our first ultrasound experience, I was extremely nervous.  We got to the doctor's office early and waited in the lobby for a while.  During our wait I went to the ladies' room and saw the nurse that usually draws my blood work.  She said, Are you here for blood work again?  No, I said, I'm here for my first ob visit.  I was grinning from ear to ear.  After what seemed like forever, the ultrasound tech came out to get us.  I was glad to see it was the same ultrasound tech I've had during this entire experience with RBA.  She greeted us and said that the doctor hadn't made it in yet, but she saw it was me waiting so decided to go ahead and get us.  She said was sooo excited to see that we were pregnant.  It really warmed my heart.

So I change and assume the position on the table.  I was so nervous.  I start to think to over a year ago when I turned my head to that monitor and saw my precious baby... only to hear, "I'm sorry but there's no heartbeat".  Please... please don't let that happen this time I say.  She has the monitor facing her.. thank goodness, I think.  I'm anxiously awaiting news.. any news!!!  She says.. hold your breath.. and I do as she says.  Then she turns the sound on the monitor.  A heartbeat!!  No doubt about it.. it's a heartbeat!  Praise God!  She says that because I have a tilted uterus she's having a hard time measuring the baby.  She doesn't want to force anything so she's going to do the best she can.  She turns the monitor towards us and we see the "blip".  I can see the blinking light that is our baby's heartbeat.  But I have to be honest with you, I couldn't really see the baby :)

At any rate, I get dressed and we wait to see the doctor.  While we're in the room I hear him outside talking to the nurse.  I can't hear what she's saying but I make out what he's saying.  "Oh, no it's fine.  There was a heartbeat though so it's okay.  No.. <mumbles>".  He walks in and I immediately start to drill him.  What's wrong.. is something wrong?? What happened?  What were you talking about?  (Poor guy!)  He says.. well.. let me first start out by saying that sometimes the nurses stir up drama.  Huh?  He explains that when he came in and asked them how everything looked they said, not good.  He asked them why and they said.. she's 8 weeks and is only measuring 4 weeks.  But then he corrected them and said.. no she's only 6 weeks and 4 days and she's measuring 6 weeks.  I interrupted him and said, The ultrasound tech did mention that I was measuring 6 weeks but there's a variance of 5 days.. which I fall in.  I'm not sure where the nurses got that I'm 8 weeks or that I'm measuring 4 weeks because that's not what we were told.  Shoot, even our ultrasound pic says 6 weeks.  So what does that mean?  He says that measuring smaller than you are, does mean you have an increased risk of miscarriage.  In the last two months he's had four women who did FETs (frozen egg transfers) that measured smaller than they were.  Three women ended up carrying fine, one miscarried.  So everything could be just fine, or everything might not be.  We just have to wait and see.  He said once we hit 10 1/2 weeks, then our chances of miscarriage drops to 1%.  Hurry up 10 1/2 weeks!!  Note: this is also when I can stop the progesterone and estrogen injections.  Soooo once again.. Hurry up 10 1/2 weeks!!  My bottom is bruised and knotted and I'm having a hard time (or at least Jeremy is) finding injection sites!

Honestly, I am concerned about measuring a few days smaller than I should.  However, I do find comfort in knowing that she was having a hard time getting a true measurement because of my tilted uterus.  Our next ultrasound is in two weeks, so I'm sure we will know more then.  In the meantime we have a trip planned to USA Volleyball Adult Nationals in Kentucky.  Nationals is always a fun, fun, fun trip.. so I'm looking forward to the distraction!!  Let's go Pancakes and Muffins! :)