Despite It All.. I am Blessed

Despite the heartache.. the pain... and the disappointment, despite it all... I am blessed.  I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful companion.. best friend.. and husband.  Throughout this whole process my husband has remained by my side.  He has honestly been my rock and I could not have remained so steadfast and brave if it wasn't for him.  No matter what decision I've made, he's always 100% supported me.  When I wake him up in the middle of the night because I feel the need to cry.. he gladly lends me his shoulder.  He has been absolutely amazing!  Every time I hear this song on the radio, I think of him.


One time I was sitting down to lunch with one of my best friends.  She asked how everything has affected Jeremy and I's relationship.  I replied.. Of course it's made us stronger.  Her reply was, no.. that's not a "of course".  With Jeremy and I, our difficult times have always made us stronger.  So for me, us becoming stronger because of this.. is an "of course".  I guess I didn't really think about how difficult times do tear couples apart.

When I was trying to decide between transferring one embryo or two, my aunt gave me the number to her friend.  She had been through a similar situation and thought she could provide some insight.  As I was speaking to her she was talking about how everything was so difficult on her and her husband's marriage.  That it almost destroyed it, they were really close to a divorce.  I said, oh.. well it's made my husband and I stronger.  He's been amazing through it all. Her response was, Well you're lucky!

So no matter what may result from this all.. in the end... I am still blessed to have the most amazing, supportive husband!