You Should be Pregnant

Gotta love when your RE tells you, "You should be pregnant."  Today was our "post ivf" appointment with the doctor.  After telling one of his quirky stories he sits down and basically says.. I don't know what to tell you.. you should be pregnant.  I was like.. I should be.. but I'm not!  What happened to my "perfect embryo"??  "These things happen.. "  Figures these things happen to me!  If I didn't have such a wonderful husband, I'd swear that the world was out to get me.  Anyway, the doctor again explains it was nothing with me.. but everything wrong with the embryo.  I still have a hard time believing that.  On the flip side, he was really positive about our chances.. and said he was confident that we would get our baby.  We were lucky that so many of the eggs they thawed for us survived, and so many of them did so well after fertilization. Unlike most couples going through this same egg donation process, we have three really good opportunities left (two more than most do!).  This means if we wanted, we could try three more times.  We mentioned to him that we'd like to transfer the two day 5 embryos next.  He was adamant that if we wanted to transfer two, we did one day 5 embryo and one day 6 embryo.  Less chance of twins, and it also meant we were not putting our two best embryos in the same transfer.  So after this next transfer, if we need it, we still have a great day 5 embryo left.  He also mentioned that they just recently updated their success rates for egg donation ivf for 2012.  The success rate went up to 85% (from 80%) after two transfers.  Seriously, if this second transfer doesn't take.. I'm in the 15% of failures.  I have a hard time swallowing that.  A 15% chance that I don't get pregnant.. 15%!

In a few weeks I will go back for an endo scratch.  It's been shown to help improve our chances of success after an ivf failure.  Then on my next period, I will start the estrogen shots again.  That would put our next transfer around March 20th.  March is a busy month for our house.. with club volleyball in full swing.  I'm hoping this will keep my mind off of everything!