I Caused My Ovaries to Fail

Typically when you're needing support or comfort you turn to your family.  Right?  When I finally realized what the repercussions of having a low AMH was, I turned to mine.  I was at the lowest point in my life, and trust me.. I've been through a lot in my life.  I've always been real close to my grandma.  My father raised me and my sister with my grandma's help.  We lived with my grandparents for many of my childhood years... so she's always been more like a mother to me.  I called her first and explained my diagnoses and that it meant I may never have children.  She pretty much had the same reaction as I did.  "I don't understand.. but you got pregnant once.. you can get pregnant again!"  Yeah, yeah.. I hear ya.. I don't understand either.  But then the WORST question I've been asked came, "Well is there something you did in your past, that maybe you regret, that could have caused this?"  Funny thing is.. for a split second I started reliving my past.  Hmm.. is there something I could have done that caused this?!  Let me think about it.. Drugs?  Nope!  Smoking?  Nope!  Abortion? NEVER! Alcohol?  Well.. I have a drink every once and a while.. but nothing that I would think would cause ovarian failure.  Wait!  WHAT?  Am I seriously asking myself if there's something I could have done to cause this?  Hold on.. did I hear that right?  What was the question again?  Surely she doesn't think that I caused this?!  I can't imagine anything that anyone could have done to themselves that could cause premature ovarian failure.  I finally responded.. Uh.. no grandma.. nothing in particular comes to mind.  Geesh!!